Alone but not lonely…

So this weekend is/was the Siesta Fiesta. The Hubby and I were fully planning on going. However, because of bad choices on my part, we did not get to go to San Antonio. It was a huge disappointment for both of us. To be honest, he had no clue about the Siesta Fiesta part of the weekend, but he was willing to spend a weekend with me and to attend a Beth Moore event.

As this weekend approached, I found myself crying over everything! I realized that, even as an adult, disappointment HURTS. Consequences are not fun. In the midst, of my pouting, God was quick to remind me of all I did not lose. He reminded that by letting go I am able to keep hold of the things that are most precious in life.

The hubby still took his leave from work and was off this week and will be off for the next two weeks. Today we had made plans to go and see his Aunt and Uncle who live just an hour from us. When I woke this morning though, I just felt like I needed a day alone. I told hubby the one thing I knew would work….

Honey, I have cramps.
Why don’t the kids and you just go.
I packed all their swimming supplies and the diaper bag. They were off.

Silence.

I then did what any other person would have done. I considered reading a book and taking a nap. I considered reading random blogs. I flipped through channels on the TV. I finally settled on playing the Wii.

Super Mario Party to be exact. I won.

I showered and dressed and did the one thing, I had no intentions of doing today. I cleaned house.

As I was cleaning, I found myself needing to talk out loud to God. I realized that as I was cleaning - it was incredibly symbolic of my life currently. Reminded me of all I learned from the Kelly Minter, No Other Gods bible study. My “house” has been in need of some cleaning. Deep cleaning. A spring cleaning, so to speak. The kind of cleaning where you go room to room and throw out all the unnecessary extra’s. You scrub the floors, wipe down the baseboards, scrape the crayon markings off the walls. You even clean out the microwave. It isn’t the type of cleaning that is done in a day though. It takes time. It takes endurance. There are days where you just find it hard, you want to stop, place items in neat piles - call it good and go on. It is worth the fight though. The promises of Christ are worth the fight. He helps us to clean house. As we empty out all that keeps us from Christ- he fills the empty spaces.

Today I spent the day alone. I was anything but lonely though. I even managed to feel a bit bonded to my fellow Siestas tonight as I ate my Lean Cuisine Mexican dish for dinner.

The family just walked in the door. I can’t wait to share my clean house with them!

*edited to add* The little man has been home less than five minutes and all toys have been pulled back out! YES!!!

Love, Cara